Today on the Screwattack, I witnessed the posting of a video that Pro Jared did for Nintendo's Wii U Challenge. I found it humorous and remembered the times when Jared did Newsroom and such.
Now, I'm not going to reiterate what everyone has said about his departure, but I find myself at a loss for proper expression. If anyone here has read a single sentence from my blogs, you'll know I'm a terribly depressed man. That said, I'm beginning to feel like my own time with Screwattack is coming to an end.
Sadly, I've already expressed this on Destructoid. One of my blogs dealt with how I felt out of place within the community and these recent events just bring the emotions front and center again. Obviously I'm not a happy man, but I also have no true idea of how to connect with anyone here.
What I'm mainly asking for help with, though, is finding a new gaming site. Are there any places you guys frequent other than Destructoid? Do you do some blogging on other sites that gives you joy?
I'm stricken with guilt over the fact that I mainly blog to grab attentions and hits, but I really want to achieve my dream of being a games blogger. I love writing about this hobby and sharing my emotions with people, but I want to do more than that. I'm just at a loss for what that more is.
More importantly, I'm at a loss for where I should be doing this. While I used to be able to communicate properly with you guys, something changed over the years. Maybe my writing got worse or my ideas were too similar, but I lost the attention of you guys and I even caused pain to a few.
Destructoid is a great site. I love it. Hell, Screwattack is amazing and I love them for reawakening the love I had with games. But, I just don't know if they are still the sites for me. Maybe I just need a change? Maybe these places are for me and I'm fretting over nothing. Regardless, I'd just like some help in discovering what truly makes me happy.