So I havent gotten to vent to you guys about this yet. Its one of the reasons I've been missing from the forums for a while. I'd mentioned in the Expressing joy thread like a month ago that I had hooked up with a friend and it had been happening on a semi regular basis, that was pretty nice. Regular sex was fun and all that. christmas eve we hooked up, and then every day until right after new years we were seeing each other.
We both signed up for this thing as a casual hookup/bootycall thing, but she kept wanting to hang out. I'm in such a go with the flow time of my life that I was cool with it. if it turns relationshippy thats fine.
A few weeks ago her coworker called me her boyfriend and I think it got too real for her, I was getting very short text responses and not seeing her nearly as much. we got drunk about a week ago and talked about how whatever was going on was over.
I'm not too distraught over it but it is a kick to my self esteem. I was doing good at keeping up a wall, and I was starting to let down that wall for her. if it had gone on another month or so it would have really hurt.
I hate that I feel like any relationship I get into I have to have a wall up now. I just have been hurt so many times that it's not worth it. I'm a good dude, don't take advantage of it.
anyway, now we're friendly... she doesn't know what she's missing though...