Depression Thread - What takes you out of the dumps and what's been bugging you?

[Mr. Gobbldigook]

So I havent gotten to vent to you guys about this yet. Its one of the reasons I've been missing from the forums for a while. I'd mentioned in the Expressing joy thread like a month ago that I had hooked up with a friend and it had been happening on a semi regular basis, that was pretty nice. Regular sex was fun and all that. christmas eve we hooked up, and then every day until right after new years we were seeing each other.

We both signed up for this thing as a casual hookup/bootycall thing, but she kept wanting to hang out. I'm in such a go with the flow time of my life that I was cool with it. if it turns relationshippy thats fine.

A few weeks ago her coworker called me her boyfriend and I think it got too real for her, I was getting very short text responses and not seeing her nearly as much. we got drunk about a week ago and talked about how whatever was going on was over.

I'm not too distraught over it but it is a kick to my self esteem. I was doing good at keeping up a wall, and I was starting to let down that wall for her. if it had gone on another month or so it would have really hurt.

I hate that I feel like any relationship I get into I have to have a wall up now. I just have been hurt so many times that it's not worth it. I'm a good dude, don't take advantage of it.

anyway, now we're friendly... she doesn't know what she's missing though...

[digtastik]

So I havent gotten to vent to you guys about this yet. Its one of the reasons I've been missing from the forums for a while. I'd mentioned in the Expressing joy thread like a month ago that I had hooked up with a friend and it had been happening on a semi regular basis, that was pretty nice. Regular sex was fun and all that. christmas eve we hooked up, and then every day until right after new years we were seeing each other.

We both signed up for this thing as a casual hookup/bootycall thing, but she kept wanting to hang out. I'm in such a go with the flow time of my life that I was cool with it. if it turns relationshippy thats fine.

A few weeks ago her coworker called me her boyfriend and I think it got too real for her, I was getting very short text responses and not seeing her nearly as much. we got drunk about a week ago and talked about how whatever was going on was over.

I'm not too distraught over it but it is a kick to my self esteem. I was doing good at keeping up a wall, and I was starting to let down that wall for her. if it had gone on another month or so it would have really hurt.

I hate that I feel like any relationship I get into I have to have a wall up now. I just have been hurt so many times that it's not worth it. I'm a good dude, don't take advantage of it.

anyway, now we're friendly... she doesn't know what she's missing though...

i teabag you. seriously. call me maybe.

[GlowBear]

You know when you feel like there's nothing worthwhile about you and you may as well be dead for all the difference or care it would make?

[Mr. Gobbldigook]

Ill call you in a little bit.

[ZombiePlatypus]

You know when you feel like there's nothing worthwhile about you and you may as well be dead

I think a lot of folks get that feeling from time to time. More than would say.

for all the difference or care it would make?

But this part is nonsense. No matter what any given person thinks there are always people that care.

How's your leg doing anyways, Glowie?

[digtastik]

I'm not depressed, but I'm stressed the fuck out and the shit that's bothering has gotten pushed back a month. I though two weeks were gonna wear me out and now this.

[Mr. Gobbldigook]

I didnt call you dig, I'm sorry, But call me at any point tomorrow if you want to brotalk. I'll be getting lunch with this girl at 1 but I'm free the rest of the day.

[Edd Strid]

I think a lot of folks get that feeling from time to time. More than would say.

But this part is nonsense. No matter what any given person thinks there are always people that care.

How's your leg doing anyways, Glowie?

Couldn't have said it better myself.

I'm at the time where my mind slipped off the high dive and into a bottomless pit last year. Can't believe what a difference my life has had over a year. Being able to look back and see it from the other side is helping in great amounts.

I still have similar thoughts to what GB mentioned, but I recognise them as just natural thoughts to my generally negative nature. Last year they were pushing me places I never thought I'd go, but now I have plenty positives to counteract them and keep me balanced.

They'll probably catch up with me again in the future, but it made me realise people do care and they always will Glow. That's something I'll hold onto should I ever stray down a dark path again.

[Mr. Gobbldigook]

Got to hang out with that girl today, It's totally over... I get nothing anymore. Its hitting me much harder than I wanted it to... I kinda wish she was just pretty and had zero personality but thats the part about her thats so hot to me. she's fun to be around, always makes me laugh, and pretty as well.
idk... I need to find someone to keep my mind off her I think... Fingers crossed I can get up the balls to ask out the bartender I have a giant crush on but is way outta my league.

[Analoge]

Just broke up with my girlfriend. I could see it wasn't working out because we both have too many insecurities. I told her we should just break it off and salvage our friendship and she professes that she is falling in love with me.

Now I'm being told both that I'm too immature and was irresponsible to go into a relationship when I didn't know what I was doing, and that I knew exactly what I was doing and that I'm some great deceiver who lured her into trusting me so I could break her heart.

I feel awful.

[Panzadolphin56]

It's never nice feeling responsible for hurting somebody you care about but all the same it's sometimes better to end these things than just end up in some sort of zombie relationship where you're kidding yourself and you end up hurting the person even more.

Sounds like she's just saying those things because she's hurt and doesn't know what to do. Give her some time, try to show you still care and maybe she'll realise that your friendship's still important to her.

[Edd Strid]

It's never nice feeling responsible for hurting somebody you care about but all the same it's sometimes better to end these things than just end up in some sort of zombie relationship where you're kidding yourself and you end up hurting the person even more.

Sounds like she's just saying those things because she's hurt and doesn't know what to do. Give her some time, try to show you still care and maybe she'll realise that your friendship's still important to her.

As well as what's quoted, there's always going to be pain on either or both sides unless the pairing are two emotionless husks.

The latter part of the emboldened post is what happened to me and I probably caused more pain not coming to the realisation earlier. Sure I regret it, we all do when we hurt others, but I'd regret it a whole lot more if the change had never happened.

[Zodiac Eclipse]

Sometimes I have too much time to worry about what's wrong with me. This never ends well, and has been a bit of a problem lately. Trying to just keep myself occupied so I don't overthink things.

[Jon Bloodspray]

I really want to quit smoking. It fucking sucks man. I don't have smokers cough yet, but I'd like to quit before it even gets there. I picked up some lozenges today on the advice of PhilKenSebben, but I haven't manned up and thrown away the rest of the pack of cigs I have yet.

[PhilKenSebben]

I really want to quit smoking. It fucking sucks man. I don't have smokers cough yet, but I'd like to quit before it even gets there. I picked up some lozenges today on the advice of PhilKenSebben, but I haven't manned up and thrown away the rest of the pack of cigs I have yet.

Throw them shits out. Dont get too down on yourself if you smoke a couple, it happens. Nicotine is one helluva a drug. Just make sure you don't buy another pack. Another thing that helped me; I bought a couple cheap cigars. When the cravings got super bad the first two weeks, I would take one and smoke a quarter of it. Just like a cig. Fucking disgusting (like I said cheap), hurts and just all around makes you not want to smoke at all. Just pop one of those lozzies and set time limits to start too. Like say, have one and dont let yourself smoke for 4-6 hours. Dont go overboard on the lozenges either though. Good luck. You can do it.

[Analoge]

It helps immensely if you can think of a strong reason why you absolutely CAN NOT smoke. For me, it took when I was looking to go on hormones and I found out that some docs won't even prescribe you if you're smoking, because of how bad smoking is for you when you're on them.

[PhilKenSebben]

It helps immensely if you can think of a strong reason why you absolutely CAN NOT smoke. For me, it took when I was looking to go on hormones and I found out that some docs won't even prescribe you if you're smoking, because of how bad smoking is for you when you're on them.

That too. For me it was my kids. Don't need 'em ending up like me.

[usedtabe]

SMOKE ERRY DAY YOLO BITCHES










I know I'm not helping but I couldn't resist. Please quit smoking, my father has smoked for 30 years and his immune system is damn near AIDS level.

[GlowBear]

best method for trying to get to sleep. cry cry cry til you're worn out.

rinse 'n' repeat

[digtastik]

best method for trying to get to sleep. cry cry cry til you're worn out.

rinse 'n' repeat

sex makes me go right to sleep.

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I really want to quit smoking. It fucking sucks man. I don't have smokers cough yet, but I'd like to quit before it even gets there. I picked up some lozenges today on the advice of PhilKenSebben, but I haven't manned up and thrown away the rest of the pack of cigs I have yet.

i quit.